Tonight, I Remember...

Today is National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.  It is after 9:00 p.m. and I just lit a candle in memory of my three precious babies in heaven; Chloe, Jesse, and Riyah Mae.  I sit here sipping on a warm cup of coffee as the scent of baked french toast [the candle] permeates the room.  Quiet.  Still.  Silent.  Peace.

I reflect upon the events of the weekend I spent with some special women in my neighbor state; women who had to say goodbye too soon.  Women, young and old, who came together for one specific purpose on this sunny fall morning.  To remember.  And what a gift to share in that with each of them.  

Back home, in the quietness of my home, in the stillness of the night, and in the silence of my thoughts, I remember.  Words are few, to be honest.  They are hard to come by when there are no words to truly express all that I wish to convey.  I could share the hurt and the pain surrounding the losses I've endured over these past 5 1/2 years, but I won't.  Because tonight, I remember...and it is good.  It is good because He is good.  My God who never changes, who holds my heart in His hands, and who has given me a ministry out of my mess.  

Jesus, hug my babies tight tonight.  

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If you did something special to honor your baby(ies) for National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day, please feel free to share in the comments.  I'd love to hear about it!